This Is What Love Feels Like For Me

Hello my beautiful royals and welcome to JGC Blog.

As a blogger and a writer, it’s important to get out of your comfort zone and be as honest as possible. Therefore, I’ve decided to talk about one sensitive (and requested) subject: Love.

I’ve recently received a couple of private comments and messages that requested that I wrote a Daily Shatzi with a love theme.

Since a Daily Shatzi did not fit what I wanted to do, I thought it would be better to write a full post, so here we go.

I don’t often write about love or rather, I don’t write about relationship or post any relationship advice because I do not think that my experiences, no matter how extended they are, should serve as lessons for anybody else. They are only lessons for me because they made me grow-up sooner than I would have liked and forged me into the woman that I am today.

Like everybody else, I have my very own idea of what love is like, feels like and should be like. I have ideals and expectations as well as fears and anticipated disappointments.

I have hope and resignation and I’m not looking for love, I’m waiting for it.

That being said, I thought that it would be interesting to try to answer a question that myself and a lot of people asked many times as a kid and sometimes as an adult.

What does it feel like to be in love?

I always assumed that when people asked about it, it was because they were in a relationship and were unsure of their feelings.

I cannot speak for everyone, I can only try to share what it was like for me, what it gave me and what it took from me. There are no rules or right way to feel it.

You feel love easily or struggle to grasp it. That just how it is.

Being in love is like… I think that the best analogy for me to describe being in love is the sea.

At the beginning, when everything is new and febrile, what I feel is similar to the sensation of letting myself being carried away by the forever dancing waves of the Mediterranean sea.  It feels like summer and it’s joyful. It’s powerful and mischievous and overtaking everything inside me, it makes me feel giddy, younger, stronger and hopeful.

Then, after a couple of years with the same person and still in love with him, sharing my life and my soul with him, I realized that the waves have carried me into the pacific ocean where I’m peacefully drifting, trusting the sea to guide me safely and letting the water soothe me when I’m afraid.

It is comforting and it feels solid. It feels permanent. Sometimes, the playful waves jiggle me a bit and a resurgence of passion reminds me of the Mediterranean sea but most of the time the pacific ocean feels like home, it is where I want to be forever, it’s filled with nothing but trust, comfort and peace.

I’m never afraid to drown.

I’m never afraid to drift away and lose myself.

I never dream of returning to the land. I’m in love and that love is the sea inside of me.

That is what it feels like for me.

What does it feel like for you? 

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